why are we sometimes the way what we are
ever changing in our beliefs and attitudes
it may seem alright at first
but then it changes in a blink of an eye
why are we so influenced by what people say
why cant we learn to have our own opinions
why does everything that i see perfect in
comes out to be something otherwise
why do they have to do those stuff
is it considered interesting,nice
or it helps them to get what they want
why must one ever speak so soft
in front of others
to intimidate them or to make them feel uneasy
dont they feel any sense of guiltiness
why must one hide things from others
things that people think i will tell on them
am i really like that
not being able to allow others to trust me
given them choices, must they do it still
given them chances, they still do it otherwise
what can i say, what can i do, i tried to do my best
may be not good enough, must i use the last resort
the very last resort that people will sometimes come to hate
doing thing i cannot follow
things that i know are not right
but why do they do them anyway
there are so many things bugging me
so many whys
so many things not being able to be answered
not being able to find a person to fully confide in
to listen fully to what i m going through
may be i m not going through enough
seriously needing a someone
who can comfort me, answer all my questions
but who
who?
may be i should keep my mouth tight
learn to open them when needed
there is not enough time left
stressing me out
venting all my frustrations here
will only end up being laughed at later on
ha
who would ever come up to me and hear my woes
may be it is BEST to keep my mouth tight
never to reveal unnecessary information
to the ones i think i knew
but seems so distant now
yes..its the best thing i can do..
Saturday, September 24, 2005;
the end
the end